Friday, May 21, 2010

Changed for the Better

Something in me has change. the way i see life, love and pain. Its been years since i last wrote my personal emotions with a pen and paper. It is in my high school days when i started writing all my feelings whether it's good or bad as an outlet of all emotions within me. sabi nga nila: kung wala kang mapag sabihan ng lahat ng nararamdaman mo isulat mo sa papel o di kaya naman ibulong mo sa hangin lahat ng sakit.

And now i start writing in this blog para naman kahit paano gumaan ang pakiramdam kong mahigit anim na buwan ko na ring pinipigilan'g sumabog.Its been 6 months after my "X" and i had a broke up,. as usual hindi lahat ng paghihiwalay ay positibo. Madalas lahat ay mabigat sa pakiramdam. Marami kang kaibigang naging pain reliever, pero sa pagtatapos ng araw pag mag isa ka na lang,. lahat un bumabalik ng paulit ulit sa isip mo.

Pero sabi nga ng lola ko "humanap ka ng mga bagay na makapagpapasaya sayo para hindi mo maisip na malungkot ka" pero paano? parang ang daling sabihin at gawin. Sinunod k pa rin ang lola ko bago siya mamatay sinubukan kong gawin lahat.

I work hard. strive really hard just to forget everything about him. pero makalipas ang anim na buwan, kialangan kong magdesisyon. I have already move on. I learned from the past, learn to love myself and learn to ask myself how much more do i really need to sacrifice of myself to be loved.

Something in me has change. the way i see life, love and pain. Hindi na ako ang dating taong magbibigay sayo ng buwan at araw isama mo na ang mga bituin kahit imposible. I have changed not only because i was hurt. i've changed because i learned how to keep a little something for myself.